The Moment I Stopped Asking for Permission to Exist

I didn’t always believe my fire was meant to burn, which is interesting because I am a Sagittarius—a fire sign, ruled by expansion, truth, and unshaken freedom. I was born under the element of flames, yet I spent most of my life programmed to contain them.

For as long as I can remember, I thought that playing small was just part of being accepted. That if I took up too much space, spoke too boldly, or shined too brightly, I would be met with resistance, disapproval—maybe even abandonment.

So I learned to hesitate. I learned how to soften my edges, how to make myself more digestible, more palatable for the world. I learned to downplay my intensity, to adjust the volume of my truth so it wouldn’t shake anyone too much. I convinced myself that making myself smaller was the price of belonging.

But here’s the thing about fire—it doesn’t go out just because you pretend it isn’t there.

It smolders. It waits. It whispers in the dark, reminding you of who you were before the world told you to shrink. And for the longest time, I ignored that whisper. Until I couldn’t anymore.

Healing is a strange thing. Sometimes it’s slow, like the gradual erosion of a shoreline, and sometimes it’s violent, like a storm ripping away everything you thought was solid. For me, it was both. Even though my healing journey began twelve years ago, it wasn’t until the last five years that I truly started unraveling the wounds that weren’t even mine to carry.

I traced the scars of my childhood, the weight of generational trauma, the expectations placed on me by people who never knew how to hold space for my truth. I saw how many times I had dimmed myself to make others comfortable. How often I had swallowed my voice so I wouldn’t be “too much.” How deeply I had convinced myself that my existence had to be earned.

But in 2024, the realization hit like lightning. I never had to earn my right to exist in my fullness. I was never meant to be small. I was never meant to be tame. I was never meant to ask permission to be exactly who I am.

For years, I had been tending to a fire I was afraid to unleash. And fire? Fire can be controlled, contained, even extinguished—but magma? Magma erupts. Magma is relentless, inevitable, unstoppable. It does not ask—it claims.

And now? Now, I am ready to ignite and burn away all doubt.

When I sat down to write I Am the Fire, I wasn’t just writing a song. I was writing my own freedom. Every lyric is a piece of me I had buried. Every verse was a version of myself I had once apologized for. It was my unshackling. It was my full permission. It was the moment I stopped hesitating and finally said: No more dimming. No more shrinking. I am the fire, and I will never hide it again.

And when I finished writing it, I knew. This wasn’t just about me. This was about every person who has ever felt the need to play small. Every person who has been told to "tone it down." Every person who has swallowed their truth because the world wasn’t ready for its power. Because the world doesn’t need our hesitation. The world needs our unapologetic radiance.

The timing of this song’s release feels cosmic. With Mercury entering Aries, the energy is all about boldness, clarity, and stepping into your truth without apology. Aries does not wait. Aries does not ask for permission. Aries moves—speaks—burns through hesitation like wildfire.

And that’s exactly what this moment is for me.

I am no longer waiting for the right time. I am no longer waiting to feel ready. I am no longer asking if I am too much. I am moving. I am speaking. I am burning through the last traces of my own hesitation. And I want you to do the same.

Because I know I’m not the only one who has played small. I know there are people reading this who have spent years making themselves smaller for the comfort of others.

So I ask you—what part of yourself have you been hiding? What truth have you been swallowing, even though it burns in your chest? What fire inside you have you been afraid to let burn?

Because the world right now needs it.

Not a smaller version of you. Not a quieter version of you. Not the version of you that hesitates at the threshold of your own power. The world needs your full fire.

There’s a reason you’re reading this. There’s a reason you’ve felt the pull inside you. There’s a reason you’ve been questioning, wondering, waiting for something to push you over the edge.

This is it.

This is your sign.

Your moment.

The universe whispering: It’s time.

No more waiting.

No more hesitation.

No more shrinking.

You are the fire.

You are the spark.

Now let yourself burn. 🔥