On Belonging, Fear, and the Collective Shame We Were Never Meant to Carry
I’ve been sitting with something heavy in my chest. A grief that arrived not through violence itself, but through an unexpected moment of kindness that cracked something open. What followed was a reckoning with fear, inherited vigilance, and the collective shame that has never belonged to those who suffer it. This is a reflection on belonging, on the weight carried in the body across generations, and on why some truths can only be known somatically, not intellectually.
6 hours ago5 min read
When Creativity Feels Like Fractions | A Lesson in My Own Color Theory.
Lately, I have felt a quiet but unmistakable pull toward my creative expression. Not dramatic or urgent, but steady, like a tide reshaping the shoreline of my inner being over time. With Neptune and Saturn beginning to stir my fifth house, the realm of creativity, joy, and self-expression, I can see now why I felt compelled to return to something simple and beginner-minded. Something that would allow me to explore creativity not as output, but as process. So I signed up for a
3 days ago3 min read
A Fourth House Kind of Wisdom, and the Key I Carry Into the Fifth
This essay continues the journey I began in The Game of Life: Reclaiming My Lost Gifts. After moving through a profound fourth house passage shaped by Neptune and Saturn, I now understand the deeper wisdom that level was teaching me. What once felt like descent has revealed itself as a crucial initiation, offering me a key I now carry into the fifth house. This is a reflection on that evolution, on choosing gentler lessons without guilt, and on learning to navigate life not t
Jan 36 min read
